What's wrong with me?: Chapter 1

What's wrong with me?

The taste of my own death

Bittersweet

Delicious

Disgusting

I long for my demise

Dagger in my heart,

So deep

Razor on my wrist,

So sweet

Rope around my neck,

So tight.

I see my life slip away,

Yet as it all gets dark,

I know that it's all right.

It's all right now.

I see my death,

I love it,

I hate it,

It thrills me,

It chills me,

I'm scared of my delight.

Dagger in my heart,

So deep,

Razor on my wrist,

So sweet,

Rope around my neck,

So tight

I smile as it grows dim

Life's problems melt away.

Nothing left for me

No more worry.

There no love for me,

Except the love of this

The one thing no one should love,

I can't seem to get away from.

Please, let me end it

Please, won't you save me

Please, does it matter?

Did it ever?